things you don't want on your birth day

TTPS traffic ticket for speeding. Ticket for using the 'shoulder.
Ticket for using the PBR. Ticket for driving without your seat belt.
Awkward birthday greetings at the office.
Too much greetings on your wall, feelings tend to get hurt at the ignored offhand shouts of happy birthday in CAPS.
Phone calls from your psycho ex. phone calls from your psychotic mother dearest, after a healthy 19 years.
Herpes, not good on any day.
TSTT mobile bill. The cable bill.
Call from amazon, your order has been canceled.
$500 from your bf, 200 stolen, 300 for 'breakfast'
cause he couldn't make it.
list is short, but the day's only just getting started...

...happy birthday me.

all of this

had to change my blog-look, i know, 'if i didn't see ii i wouldn't want it" well that's neither here nor there at this point 'cause i did and i did. It's July, this where the crowds go "July/May/'uary, de best month!" Frankly, it being the end of school semester and the beginning of 'summer' it can arguably be... doesn't have the pressures of December or the intimidation and judgment of January, it's near competitors :) See July is my birthday month, and where, just about 4 years ago i gave up on 25 as my golden year, i postponed it to my golden birthday... where not many get the opportunity to do as they please miss 4 on the 4th and 12 on the 12th. And like all things postponed it rolls around and you're still like, "busy, check me back." It's gonna be here and it's got to be attended to.

Sadly, i have friends who won't let it go, nature of ghastly humans, revel in reveling in their brothers'/sisters' misery. I'm torn in between deciding to take the high road and celebrating with them, except that'll be penance for me and i think the least i can get, is what i want, if that's not asking to much... or deciding to be childish and disappear for a couple days, the norm. EXCEPT! this time i'll be getting my hair cut and dyed somewhere and maybe some ink or piercings :)

lot of ish going down, but ya know me, i try to stay out of people's bizz, especially when it concerns me and i not up to addressing you in a civil matter. Yes, this post is actually as grand as you're thinking because even as i write i'm nodding my dead with steel conviction that i WILL be back, posting frequent and eloquent *he he* bits all through the month, nope, no sire will July be like June or that month before it. but, ya know. I'll even toss in a random pic or 4 of where i've been lately, make it nicely and wholesome, chuckle.

Feel good

feel good. I'd say even the air smells great but I' stuck indoors, in an AC room with no windows. Had an amazing weekend, sweet mix of work and play. worked this hoodass wedding, twas the worst I've seen, yet. Geez, cuss out, groom vs. mom-in-law, as usual. I mean, am i supposed to snap this with my 'photo-journalist' approach? geezus knows it twas highly the highlight of the evening. but as usual with ma negros, the food was off the chain, uhm uhmm! grandma most ov put her foot in that fish dish, finger lick.

Went to a house party after. oh wait, saw some kids making out like heavy in a car parked out side first. then went to a house party. two girls, celebrating together. i was like "oh how swell! wish i had me a girl friend i was so intensely close with. they sure get along well"

Cake cutting time, they stick the cake with each other, crowd laughs "kiss! kiss! kiss!" and they kissed... like kissed kissed. I'm so totally for freedom of sexuality but the hushed silence of good friends gathered... priceless. the chicken there was awesome too, actually took mine to the car... and then had for breakfast around 2 on Sunday after non.

took the niece to movies and then it was Sundance the House music at GreenHouse. Epic as always, rolling with Kerlon again, now there's a guy that loves dance. We stole the show again, oh they can't touch us, especially when we're grinding lol!

Pictures some day, in this horrid Abstract office right now.

slowly losing you blog. yawn. these days I'm working on wrecking my liver, catching up with years of non-drinking. Loving it, all sorts of things are excusable under the 'liquor induced state' fondly called 'wasted'.

Hanging with new buddy, Kerlon, guy's good people. I write to remember this when in the next few months I'm saying "dude's a complete jerk!" :)

We worked together on a restaurant feature for The Carlton Savannah, these are mine.

someone spilled my milk

and bloody near set me off. but these things, disagreements, lasts too long and often morph into something completely unrelated. and with that completely vague statement we move on...

I quit my job 2 days ago :). I feel super energized and all tingly inside. Soon I will finally be living my dream of 'starving artiste' well starving photographer anyway. Juices are flowing, adrenaline waiting for the first month I can't afford rent, gosh always wondered what would happen. I phantom it's not the same as ring up at the Cashier and placing stuff back on the shelf when my tab crosses 400, I can stick to a budget when i have too, especially if 400 is all I've got on.

Oh well as we eagerly await, see some of what the last weekends have been like

to be or to be

long weekend just over, in my beautiful party-republic nation. partied hearty. slept sparingly. drank unwisely. then today decided that you cannot, after all, grow into your surroundings. I'll always be a weirdo, i can't even camouflage in my 'regular' clothing. oh well.

weekend shots... *not uploading!*

rainy food season

Rainy season's here. I've got loads of mosquito bites to prove it. In this land of many (not) options, between the rainy and the dry season I'd take the rain, cause you can wake with a better feeling that, your odds are pretty good that people wont come 'visiting' in the downpour. When it pours in Trinidad, it pours. What do i do with all this time? Mimic the food channel